Throwback Thursday. May 2011. Out first bike ride to the beach together. And Chuck still had his goatee!

I’m so in love with this guy.

#HormonesMakingMeMissingHimThisMorning

#BloatPleaseGoAway

Finally got a #running #partner. Come on boyfran!!

Got photobooth-bombed by my fiend!! Grrr

Taken at my friend’s wedding reception. I’m starting to like this mint color. I’m a mint and coral kinda gal.

A song that describes our rough situations in the past couple months.

“we’re not broken just bent”

Damn I can relate to this.

To those who knows about my LDR-no-more relationship…

maryxsquattins said: You’re going through the growing pains of a relationship where the time spent together was always a “vacation” from regular life. Now you’re seeing the regular life. It’s a big adjustment going from fairy tale to real life. But you can make it.

This makes a lot of sense and Chuck needs to read this too. When we were in a LDR, I really didn’t wanna argue that much because there was only so much time together before he had to go away again. Therefore I didn’t want the time go to waste.

Thanks, Tory!

At first, it was exciting. It was what I had been waiting for, for about 1 year and 8 months. But shortly we started getting on each other’s nerves - we frustrate each other. Chuck sold his house so he had to stay with me at my apartment… which wasn’t big enough for two people. He started criticizing me on my living, which starting to frustrate me after sometime. I started becoming a bitch because well, that’s me when I’m unhappy. This relationship is becoming really hard because we had so much space beforehand and now, we hardly have some. We started arguing - a lot. And that affected our sex life too. Which made us even more frustrated.

I started questioning our decision living together in New Orleans. But I tried to think that it might be because the living space is not big enough. I moved out and put my stuff in the storage then Chuck and I flew to Indonesia (Jakarta) to see my family. They really liked him. Although it was kinda awkward because they thought he was my fiance (in my culture, you only bring someone from far away to the family only if you’re serious enough… which I am). Then we flew to Bali and while we were having a great time, the argument didn’t stop.

We got back to Houston and had to stay at Chuck’s friend’s house for 3 days because we were both homeless. We kept arguing and at some point, I just had it. I had to get out from the house so I just drove around and kept thinking about this relationship. When I got back to the house, I told him something that I never thought I’d say: “I’m giving up, Chuck. I give up.”

For the first time I saw the most hurtful look in his eyes that I regretted myself already. I didn’t wanna hurt him, but I was emotionally exhausted. I really felt like I wasn’t the one for him. I wanted to let go. But he said “no. I don’t wanna lose you.” We made up but we argued again within two days.

This time, we both had it.

But then I started to think about all the good times and not the negative things. We have had a lot of good memories. I started thinking about all that time waiting for him to come home. I started to think about all that time waiting for the distance to be over. I started thinking about me coming to see his family on Christmas twice already… and him coming all the way across the country to see my family.

I started thinking, do I really wanna waste all that? The answer is hell no. 

I know this is going to be hard for about 5 months (according to a friend of ours who’s been in a similar situation). But I know, we know it will get better. We know it can be fixed. We just need to be a team.

This relationship may never be perfect, but it doesn’t have to be. All I know is that I was about to live the phrase you don’t know how much someone means to you until you lose them - But I don’t ever want to and I won’t.

And so we poured us a glass of Chivas 18 and made a toast for our new life in New Orleans. Cheers.

I know I have barely posted stuff lately. My life just has been very, very busy lately. Planning my travels and my moving and my final and my graduation…

My life is currently on a fast-paced mode.

Long story short, I’m going to be living together with Chuck in New Orleans. 

So shout out to… New Orleanians! I’ve never been but I hope I’ll like it

Now excuse me, I have dinner waiting for me ;)

Chuck got another job offer in New Orleans and after discussing, we think that it’s better than Korea because:

1. I don’t have to worry about my workout and/or finding a gym that’s bigger than a hotel gym!!

2. I can get a job and start to build my career.

3. America fuck yeah!

4. Still gonna have a puppy

5. Still close to my friends and family in Texas. (Far from those who live in Indonesia).

6. Love the architecture!

7. Did I say that I don’t have to worry about my workout?

8. Maybe I can try to compete?

But most of all, I’m excited to be living together with Chuck. No distance at last. So close!!!

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Chuck Albrecht.

Attention, Chuck Albrecht.

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The value of one hour. 

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